I started to write today's post, and I realized two sentences into it that I just wasn't ready to unload all that was on my heart. I don't even know if I can even fully grasp all that I am feeling, so I decided the best thing for now is to give you a brief update of what has been taking place in our lives over here the past few days, followed by a delicious treat made with a beautiful friend.
So, briefly an update on our lives. On Thursday, I began to have complications and when I went to the doctor on Friday to make sure everything was okay, we learned that we had lost baby. The ultrasound showed there had been very little growth since the last 10 weeks appointment (I was coming up on 15 weeks) and there was no longer a heartbeat.
I promise I will go into more details at a later date, but for now I will simply share that while we are certainly hurting and grieving and processing all that happened, we have been completely overwhelmed by the support and encouragement of our family and friends. And especially the support and encouragement of our friends here in Germany who stepped in when our family couldn't physically be here.
So often I think we feel isolated being so far away from our family and the people who know us best. But, after this weekend, the Lord showed me how many amazing and generous people He has put in our lives here who came to be with us in our time of need.
They brought fruit, flowers, hugs and tears.
They sent messages of encouragement and shared words of hope. They loved on us, cared for us, sat with us, talked with us, cried with us. And we felt incredibly blessed.
One friend, Amber, came by today while Luis wrapped things up at the Stadium (the team pulled off a win yesterday by the way and will be staying in the second league which means we are employed next year, a huge positive amidst the trials) and took care of errands before we fly out tomorrow.
Amber drove up from Kaiserslautern to hang out a bit and was so awesome to help me fold clothes and pack and just keep my mind off of things. And then amidst the chores, as girls will do, we started talking about baking and much more exciting things than packing and laundry and decided baking sounded like a lot more fun.
Not having much in the house since we are leaving tomorrow, we were pretty limited. But somehow we got on the topic of Lärabars and decided we were gonna make them. And make them we did. We scrimped and scraped through almost-empty packages of dried fruits and nuts and ended up with just enough ingredients to whip up our culinary creation.
The Almond Extract in these bad boys is intoxicating. Seriously. It makes these smell absolutely amazing.
Heeeeere's Amber. Isn't she purrty.
Now, from these pictures, these don't look so appetizing.
But remember, I'm not a photographer. Nor do I have a fancy camera. So I can't always capture the deliciousness of the food. But just pretend.
Or check out Ms. Madison Mayberry's version of the Lärabar (which, by the way, inspired this culinary endeavor) over at Espresso and Cream. Her pics are much more enticing.
So here you have it, a sweet treat to brighten the day. I'm looking forward to taking these with me on the plane tomorrow for a healthy and delicious snack.
Adapted from Espresso and Cream
10 ounces mixed dried fruit (we used a combo of dates and raisins)
1 cup prunes
1 cup slivered almonds
1 cup walnuts
1 teaspoon almond extract
1/2 teaspoon cinnamon
1/4 cup creamy peanut butter
5 ounces dried mixed fruits (we used a combination of dried berries and raisins)
Combine all ingredients in a food process and process until finely chopped. We let ours go a couple minutes.
Pour ingredients into an 8x8 pan (line it with foil for easy clean up) and press firmly into the pan. Let sit in refrigerator overnight or freeze for 30 minutes (see note below) and then cut into desired size bars.
Note: In our case, we let them sit in the fridge for 30 minutes because 1. they didn't fit in my freezer 2. we were too impatient to wait a whole day to try them. They held together fine, but I'm curious to see the difference in the morning after they have been in the fridge.